: a person who professes beliefs and opinions that he or she does not hold in order to conceal his or her real feelings or motives
Liar: defined anywhere and everywhere as the same thing!
Reality check: a confirmation of facts, especially to combat malicious rumors, stand ground against excessive idealism, or dispel fantasies
Epiphany: divine realization
like i care,
sky's the limit.
Wednesday, December 24, 2008
Thursday, November 27, 2008
uckfay ymay ifelay
I didn't mean to hurt you more... I just thought you needed to know why else I was angry. What I'm about to say is only for your eyes. Please don't text back after this just listen:
Wednesday, November 12, 2008
The Man in the Glass
When you get what you want in your struggle for self,
And the world makes you long for a day,
Just go to the mirror and look at yourself,
And see what THAT man has to say.
For if it is not your father or mother or wife
Whose judgment upon you must pass.
The fellow whose verdict counts most in your life
Is the one staring back in the glass.
Some people might think you are a
straight shootin' chum and
call you a wonderful guy,
But the man in the glass says you're only a bum,
If you can't look him straight in the eye.
He's the fellow to please, never mind all the rest,
For he's with you dear up to the end. And
you have passed your most dangerous, difficult test
If the guy in the glass is your friend
You may fool the whole world down the pathway of
years, and get pats on the back as you pass.
But your final reward will be heartaches and tears
If you have cheated the man in the glass.
DAAAAMN, you present yourself so well huh?
are you even real? does anyone know the real you?
i dont even care anymore cause you dont deserve my respect!
seeing is believing but believing is also seeing;
keeep hating shows that you niggaz still care!!!
all i care about is myself, you killed the moment, peace
Sunday, October 26, 2008
KB24
LA kneeds this champ, and he is A ok for this next season! good luck Lakers!
1720, i need at least a 1900, shit yo! back to the books, aha
and this jr. year, can it be any harder???? i need to step it up!
"You fool me once, shame on you, but if you fool me twice, shame on me."
everything said, everything done, what was a lie, was only one.
but now there are games and fun, i can say now that i truly won.
so let me build my new kingdom, stop glooming, now run,
cause when I stay stunned, I will never overcome, so finally
my dreams will become, reality, under the sun,
just believe, achieve, never be outdone,
and now i begun, to rheally ponsder my life, i got it going on,
bonita applebum, thanks for helping me refrain from,
all this bullshit, the weight on my shoulders are gone, a fucking ton,
yous a shooked one.
what the chuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck???
1720, i need at least a 1900, shit yo! back to the books, aha
and this jr. year, can it be any harder???? i need to step it up!
"You fool me once, shame on you, but if you fool me twice, shame on me."
everything said, everything done, what was a lie, was only one.
but now there are games and fun, i can say now that i truly won.
so let me build my new kingdom, stop glooming, now run,
cause when I stay stunned, I will never overcome, so finally
my dreams will become, reality, under the sun,
just believe, achieve, never be outdone,
and now i begun, to rheally ponsder my life, i got it going on,
bonita applebum, thanks for helping me refrain from,
all this bullshit, the weight on my shoulders are gone, a fucking ton,
yous a shooked one.
what the chuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuuck???
Sunday, September 28, 2008
cranberry or raspberry?
i do not know yet but its a win win situation? haaaaaaaaaa...
best weekend of fall so far, its starting to loook better ya know? you dont know that though!
even through out all the bullshit that has been going on lately,
shit, i manage!
best weekend of fall so far, its starting to loook better ya know? you dont know that though!
even through out all the bullshit that has been going on lately,
shit, i manage!
Sunday, September 21, 2008
Thursday, September 4, 2008
Sunday, August 24, 2008
prison song
1. blogging i guess helps me get the weight off my shoulders, but it's not as good as speaking to you on the phone.
2. im sorry for fucking up and being stupid and lying.
3. i had a relaxed disposition on things but i realized now i am fucking up.
4. if i could go back to two years ago, i wouldnt start off like that and be as true as i possibly can.
5. im sorry to all the people that have been affected by my stupidity and sorry for fucking you guys over.
6. im sorry to all my friends that i recently lost cause i didnt care to talk to yall, i choose to ignore you and that was fucked up.
7. im sorry for using you, one of my best friends, to try to know shit that i shouldnt even worry about. me and you always have arguments and shit but you are always there and hopefully im there for you too bro.
8. im sorry for talking to you like that and messing around and shit and hopefully i didnt ruin it for you. hope you guys are doing well.
9. im sorry for not bringing out the complete truth, i know i shouldnt lie about anything or hide anything and now i feeel like the biggest dick in the world.
10. im sorry for taking advantage of your presence and shit at school and now youre gone and you were my only true homie at my gay ass school and now you go somewhere else, i dont deserve such good friends like you.
11. im sorry for neglecting to speak to you and talking to you on a daily basis. you created everything in this world and i havent been thanking you for all the good things i have in this world. im sorry for being too materialistic and im sorry for not praying to you as much.
12. im sorry for getting into this relationship shit too deep but i cant help it cause i love you.
13. im sorry i lied to you and a couple others, but most especially you.
14. im sorry to all those people that i wasnt as nice to but they were always nice to me no matter how much i fucked up. i know i dont talk to you guys as much and im going to try to change that. your friendships are unconditional and i thank you for that.
15. im sorry for not respecting you two as much i should. these past years ive been doing my best to be there for you two. you guys blesssed me with such a good life and love me so much and i love you guys too.
16. im sorry for not talking to you anymore, ive known you since pre-school and we separated ways as we went to different high schools. you were always my best friend and now i dont even see you more than 2 times a year. you too were always there and helped me out with anything. you are so smart and you are going to be very successful and im thankful for knowing you cause you motivate me to do better things.
17. im sorry for looking down on you about what you want to do in the future. i realized that whatever we do in the future, we have to just be our best at it, whether its being a lawyer or being a houseparent. you are very intelligent and you dont know it, i hope you can live it to the fullest.
18. im sorry for not replying to you as much as i should. from 4th grade till now you talk to me about my walk with God and i rarely reply and not show you my full emotions. you are real strong in your beliefs and i want to be just like you, you are like a prophet from the Lord always helping people, and im very blessed to be able to know you, and hopefully i can see you one day and help you out and everyone about spreading the Word.
19. im sorry for not talking to you guys as much since you came to live here with us. you two are amazing and smart and going to be successful soon after everything gets settled. when you guys come back friday i will not only try, but i will spend more time with you guys.
20. im sorry for acting stupid and abusing your former trust. i know now that every little thing that i do that was bad had a big effect on what you think of me. you now do not respect me, but i respect that decision, cause i deserve that.
21. im sorry for wasting the past years for you. high school is just started for you and you shouldnt be stressing about someone like me cause im not someone who deserves you. you are such a beautiful girl and very wise and intelligent. you helped me realize how fucked up ive been and thats a good thing cause i dont want people knowing me as someone being like that. i wished people would see me as a nice person, but apparently im not known for the right reasons. i fucked over the only person in the world that i really really really liked (even love), and she was the only person i wished i would never lose... now we are moving our separate ways and i hope the best for you cause you are going to be great one day. i wish i could be there for you and be there unconditionally but it now seems like it will never happen. you mean so much to me and all i hope for now is that you are happy. i know you thought you knew me better than that, i thought i knew myself better than that too. i hope i dont fuck up anything with anyone else in the future cause i dont think i can lose anyone else after losing you. i know you are real angry with me, and i know i deserve all this shit thats happening to me now. im just tryna let this burn right now and hope for those better days... ill pray for you everyday and pray that your life is full of fortune and happiness. I love you.
2. im sorry for fucking up and being stupid and lying.
3. i had a relaxed disposition on things but i realized now i am fucking up.
4. if i could go back to two years ago, i wouldnt start off like that and be as true as i possibly can.
5. im sorry to all the people that have been affected by my stupidity and sorry for fucking you guys over.
6. im sorry to all my friends that i recently lost cause i didnt care to talk to yall, i choose to ignore you and that was fucked up.
7. im sorry for using you, one of my best friends, to try to know shit that i shouldnt even worry about. me and you always have arguments and shit but you are always there and hopefully im there for you too bro.
8. im sorry for talking to you like that and messing around and shit and hopefully i didnt ruin it for you. hope you guys are doing well.
9. im sorry for not bringing out the complete truth, i know i shouldnt lie about anything or hide anything and now i feeel like the biggest dick in the world.
10. im sorry for taking advantage of your presence and shit at school and now youre gone and you were my only true homie at my gay ass school and now you go somewhere else, i dont deserve such good friends like you.
11. im sorry for neglecting to speak to you and talking to you on a daily basis. you created everything in this world and i havent been thanking you for all the good things i have in this world. im sorry for being too materialistic and im sorry for not praying to you as much.
12. im sorry for getting into this relationship shit too deep but i cant help it cause i love you.
13. im sorry i lied to you and a couple others, but most especially you.
14. im sorry to all those people that i wasnt as nice to but they were always nice to me no matter how much i fucked up. i know i dont talk to you guys as much and im going to try to change that. your friendships are unconditional and i thank you for that.
15. im sorry for not respecting you two as much i should. these past years ive been doing my best to be there for you two. you guys blesssed me with such a good life and love me so much and i love you guys too.
16. im sorry for not talking to you anymore, ive known you since pre-school and we separated ways as we went to different high schools. you were always my best friend and now i dont even see you more than 2 times a year. you too were always there and helped me out with anything. you are so smart and you are going to be very successful and im thankful for knowing you cause you motivate me to do better things.
17. im sorry for looking down on you about what you want to do in the future. i realized that whatever we do in the future, we have to just be our best at it, whether its being a lawyer or being a houseparent. you are very intelligent and you dont know it, i hope you can live it to the fullest.
18. im sorry for not replying to you as much as i should. from 4th grade till now you talk to me about my walk with God and i rarely reply and not show you my full emotions. you are real strong in your beliefs and i want to be just like you, you are like a prophet from the Lord always helping people, and im very blessed to be able to know you, and hopefully i can see you one day and help you out and everyone about spreading the Word.
19. im sorry for not talking to you guys as much since you came to live here with us. you two are amazing and smart and going to be successful soon after everything gets settled. when you guys come back friday i will not only try, but i will spend more time with you guys.
20. im sorry for acting stupid and abusing your former trust. i know now that every little thing that i do that was bad had a big effect on what you think of me. you now do not respect me, but i respect that decision, cause i deserve that.
21. im sorry for wasting the past years for you. high school is just started for you and you shouldnt be stressing about someone like me cause im not someone who deserves you. you are such a beautiful girl and very wise and intelligent. you helped me realize how fucked up ive been and thats a good thing cause i dont want people knowing me as someone being like that. i wished people would see me as a nice person, but apparently im not known for the right reasons. i fucked over the only person in the world that i really really really liked (even love), and she was the only person i wished i would never lose... now we are moving our separate ways and i hope the best for you cause you are going to be great one day. i wish i could be there for you and be there unconditionally but it now seems like it will never happen. you mean so much to me and all i hope for now is that you are happy. i know you thought you knew me better than that, i thought i knew myself better than that too. i hope i dont fuck up anything with anyone else in the future cause i dont think i can lose anyone else after losing you. i know you are real angry with me, and i know i deserve all this shit thats happening to me now. im just tryna let this burn right now and hope for those better days... ill pray for you everyday and pray that your life is full of fortune and happiness. I love you.
Thursday, August 14, 2008
fuck what you feel, realize what is real.
inevitable wasn't it?
"and she tries to grasp that feeling she once felt when she was so godamn happy"
was last night a dream?
I'm just dreading those last few moments...
stay strong mayne, look for those better days...
"and she tries to grasp that feeling she once felt when she was so godamn happy"
was last night a dream?
I'm just dreading those last few moments...
stay strong mayne, look for those better days...
Friday, August 8, 2008
f.r.i.d.a.y.
daaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaamn! i wish you would show me love! stop trippin, ma dapa ka!
Sunday! Big things happening in Asia and coming from Asia!
Sunday, July 27, 2008
jet del mar
she's in the philippines and i got to do my summer reading!
kickin it with the set is chill and i gotta go to rancho soon, and maybe buena park and chino hills to see other homies! its almost august 2nd, and i still dont know how to contact her/ where to send somethang..
kickin it with the set is chill and i gotta go to rancho soon, and maybe buena park and chino hills to see other homies! its almost august 2nd, and i still dont know how to contact her/ where to send somethang..
Sunday, July 20, 2008
the world is yours
today was a good day.
woke up at 11 45, BASO game at 12, and crystal showed up!!
it was her first time to see my play ball and i was overwhelmed,
i played pretty good since she was there and the XXX vitamin
water :] ate thai bbq today, twice, swam, went to Revin's and
Roma's birthday parties. marv was buzzed, hilarious...
oh ya and crystal let me borrow the nintendo wii, BRAWL
I think crystal and i are doing ok now, even though i know
she still questions herself and
my friends if she should trust me or not. i really like this girl no doubt, i even can say i love her. fuuuuuuck,
i wish she would just trust me
cause i know i can. its just yea that "pic" threw our good
building relationship,
but that shit was a hoax and joke,and i wish she would understand.
baby i really really like you,
i think about you all the time, and you are the only girl
i ever think about, EVER. fuck,
i am not the type of guy to do that shit to you i know it
and you know it as well. t.r.u.s.t.
me on this one babygirl...
woke up at 11 45, BASO game at 12, and crystal showed up!!
it was her first time to see my play ball and i was overwhelmed,
i played pretty good since she was there and the XXX vitamin
water :] ate thai bbq today, twice, swam, went to Revin's and
Roma's birthday parties. marv was buzzed, hilarious...
oh ya and crystal let me borrow the nintendo wii, BRAWL
I think crystal and i are doing ok now, even though i know
she still questions herself and
my friends if she should trust me or not. i really like this girl no doubt, i even can say i love her. fuuuuuuck,
i wish she would just trust me
cause i know i can. its just yea that "pic" threw our good
building relationship,
but that shit was a hoax and joke,and i wish she would understand.
baby i really really like you,
i think about you all the time, and you are the only girl
i ever think about, EVER. fuck,
i am not the type of guy to do that shit to you i know it
and you know it as well. t.r.u.s.t.
me on this one babygirl...
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